victorous in GOD

Thursday, June 18, 2009

3:43 AM

The Sinner's Journal VIII

When the world was out praying,
here I was sinning,
I felt the Lord's presence but it wavered me no way.
And yet I blamed the Lord,
"Oh why Father, have you abandoned me this day?"

Sins pierced through like a thousand daggers,
unable to walk, I could only stagger.
The arrows of fire seared through the sky,
stabbing my arms, legs and thighs.

"Oh Lord help me!" the words of my mouth cried out.
"Do not forsake me, hear my soul shout!"
But God did not answer,
I was on my own.
Wandering under the blanket sky,
of arrows of death that burned throughout my bones.

And then a voice called out,
"What's with the racket in your heart?
You look so peaceful, but inside you're worn out."
I looked to the heavens and I saw peace,
my Lord's body - a shield,
to make the pain cease.

I apologised for my stupidity,
I know I was wrong.
He came down to embrace me,
there in his arms,
was where I belonged.

We fled from the war,
out of harm's way.
To refuel and rearm,
to fight this battle another day.

For I'm with God,
I'm not shaken,
For I'm his son,
I am forgiven.
For his blood was shed,
my home's now heaven.

-James Chia

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Saturday, May 23, 2009

8:02 AM

Wah, i'm finally starting to jog again. haha.
ok let's see...
friday there was sports day,
so den we drama had our sales booth near the teacher's buffet.
haha so i went round trying to kope food from my teachers.
yes i know. it's a new low.
lols!
but after that one of them asked me to help her do some sai kang.
ran down to the teachers on the track and delivered them some food.
and that entitled me to the buffet as well! haha
i was the only student taking their satay and tea.
lols den everyone look at me like.
woah.
hah
after that when every teacher ate liao, left the mee goreng.
so they opened it up to the student body, who flooded the table to help themselves to a hearty serving of mee goreng, of which i too had already eaten earlier
haha.

today was paper 1, chinese. 2 hours
Maths remedial, 2 hours.
den i went home b4 going to lunch with zeph.
went down to church for usher.
same old same old.
talked abt the fear of God, and speaking of which, i realise my fear is not as strong as before.
so im gonna have to pull up my socks and really be disciplined abt sustaining this relationship with God.
went for dinner at subway, Compasspoint.
had some fun with cell,
walked with zeph home.
and now i'm at home---

---thinking of what surprise i should get.
and also thinking of questions i guess i shouldn't be asking for now.

+ AMEN

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

7:41 AM

Thanks to all those who showed concern.
:) I'll be fine.

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Friday, April 24, 2009

7:00 AM

CHS Drama Club SYF: GOLD WITH HONOURS!
haha.
We got the results on wed,
did not have the time to come and post.
Coming to think of it,
4 years in CHS Drama has really flown by.
From my very first drama production in sec 1,
Guide to an average teenage boy's life,
to my first SYF in sec 2,
Animal Farm, Molly.
From the play of Army Daze in sec 3,
to finally, my second SYF this year,
The Lord Of the Flies, Ralph (Or as i would pronounce it, Rualph).
Yup, time sure has flown by
in the blink of an eye.

Coming back to this Gold with honours,
i as a cast for 4 years and second time SYF,
did not feel as though we deserved it.
First of all, there were MANY faults:
Lights at time were not shining on us,
The chorus were not as tight as rehearsals,
Energy dipped at times.
And counting the fact that we did better rehearsals/performances in front of a crowd that unanimously agreed we were not a GWH yet,
i really had no confidence in clinching the GWH.
But, i kept asking God,
to give me faith,
to bless the Drama club.

Like Mrs Crothers said to us before the performance,
somewhere along the lines of,
we just have to give our best and leave the rest to FAITH.
and i totally agree with that.
I went up there,
gave it my best.
and really, i felt it was, on my part, much greater than what i usually did.
I lost the James i was in the Character Ralph i was playing,
Occasionally coming back to draw feelings to fuel the character.
Projecting and Enunciating, so as to be heard.
I gave my best, and left the rest to God.
Constantly praying and having faith,
although the little voice of doubt at the back of my mind promoting a non-GWH.

Well,
to sum things up,
SYF has ended,
God has blessed us with great results.
Though a good amount of talent would be leaving the club (not that there will be no more talent but seriously..)
But,
Nothing is impossible,
as long as we continue to keep this Faith which brought us our GWH in our hearts.
It's not a closure to my 4 years of drama yet.
There will be a debut for Drama this Aug.
And that, would be my last play in the
4 years i have spent with the CHS drama club.

One last play,
One last applause,
One last curtain call.
(for the 4 years in CHS drama ONLY)

Anyway, CATS was UBER SUPERB!
Haha, Rum Tum Tugger.
(random)

James

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Tuesday, April 21, 2009

6:12 AM

Ah, tired tired tired...
jogged to church again on sat.
with zeph this time.
i was 30 seconds faster!
YEAH! haha. zeph...
let's just say i can run long dist...
anw.
tmr's technically the last day of sch for the week for me.
coz thurs, fri and sat.
my class will be having some workshop thing,
apparently to boost our motivation.
Haha.
though they're a full day thing.
haiz..
results for drama coming soon.
most probably this thurs.
all the best for CHS drama club!
well then,
that's all for now.

James

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Monday, April 13, 2009

6:46 AM

Life is good!
Haha,
Managed to jog to church yesterday night at 1035,
finished the 7.5-8km journey at around 1120.
Could have been faster though.
thanks to stitches from my digesting dinner.
But whatever,
I MADE IT TO CHURCH!

Haha, looking back, i really thank God on how much He has helped me.
Still remember, back then at sec 2, it was so tough to just jog 2km.
How much God has brought me through.
And i believe he would bring me through much more trials to come.
The days to come will be trying,
But God is with me.
And if God is with me, who can be against me?

Also, I've definitely gotta learn how to be more gentleman-like.
Time to practise chivalry in my life.
and also,
time to go.
Haha,
well, that's it.
Till next time.

James~

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Saturday, April 11, 2009

10:43 AM

Evoke is over!
Wow, time flies so fast when you're having fun.
Rehearsals were great. Credits to James Low.
Thanks man.
Yesterday during Evoke,
We did great, though kinda saddened like coz we weren't mentioned in the results thingy.
HOW COULD THEY?!?!
anyway,
The groups were rather good.
Especially this particular group called Take 2.
HAHA ITS OURS!
no la.
Anyway, Evoke went down rather well.
Uncle Dan's singing to Auntie Ivy was soooooooooooooooooooo Sweet.
Haha.
Melts your heart like nothing on Earth.
cannot remember the song title though :P
Today was about dreams and all.
Rather good day.
Sorry WY!
I'm so sorry. :'(
Forgive yeah? :)
That's about it.
Oh ya.

You will be the first to read this.
MCWINGS! yum yum yum~ Don't miss it. :) HAHA! jk jk.
Ok then, Goodnight!
Or should i say, Good morning!
It IS 2 am in the mornin'.
So,
Ciao!

+ AMEN